The expansion of this universe was repeatedly caused by me, unknowingly, irresponsibly, until there came a time in my life when I woke up and realized that I was dependent on the Divine intervention of a supreme being … then there was growth .
Growth is an act of expulsion, a process, an event, from which there are many manifestations, from which one learns. The birth of an embryo / fetus in the womb to this universe, the culmination of a pregnancy, the ability to focus on Braxton Hicks contractions, the bursting of amniotic fluid, the stripping of membranes / dignity, the origin of pain and eventual resistance, the dilation of the cervix, labor, the maneuvers of lowering a baby into the birth canal, the taming of anger, as once was a lyre to fury, the expulsion of a fetus, the placenta, torn delivery, an episiotomy … .birth … the highest form and the possibility of growth.
The birth of life, any birth, is parallel to the birth of all virtues … growth; tolerance, courage, wisdom, grace, the epitome of spiritual growth. The birth of a spirit / soul, ensures the passage to eternity, the birth of a thought, rationalization, consciousness … I claim it, not only for having brought six children into the world, but also for each experience in life Negative or positive, that shaped me, determined who I became, what virtues were born within, culminating in births of all kinds. I will now talk to you about childbirth, because this is what it fostered in me, births of many other kinds, essentially spiritual growth.
The first time, I was young / carefree, my baby was breech, I had a caesarean section, a traumatic delivery, I gave birth to a blind baby with brain clots and kidney problems, and an apgar score of one. After three days, she died, I died inside, I was traumatized, I was derailed … I accepted, I prayed. It was the birth of humility. The second time, out of fear of death, I had a vaginal delivery after cesarean section (VBAC), I gave birth to a healthy baby. I was ecstatic, nursing, cracked, bleeding nipples / contracted uterus, I was soon sleep deprived, unstable, controlled and driven by determination. It was the birth of love. The third time, for fear of pain, the baby was on the back, acupuncture did not alleviate the excruciating agony of childbirth, I gave birth to a sad, whiny, healthy baby, who grew up to be intelligent / dyslexic. I fasted, I became strong, I began to explore the depths of my mind, it was the birth of patience.
The fourth time, fearful of the unknown, induced for eighteen hours, without the start of labor, I gave birth to a healthy child, born in the ‘caul’, which has a spiritual meaning to defend against the forces of evil, a ‘caulbearer ‘, a sign of good luck, a child destined for greatness. I meditated, I became brave. It was the birth of courage and wisdom. The fifth time, I prayed for nine months, recommended terminating the pregnancy due to German measles. Against all odds, I bled, endured nausea until the contractions born from childbirth separated for three minutes.
I stayed home until all my maternal duties were fulfilled. I gave birth to a healthy girl, with my umbilical cord wrapped around her neck four times. She grew up to be beautiful and slightly dyslexic.
I was healed, purified, rejuvenated, my soul was born, an awakening of my conscience was the birth of faith. The sixth time, I was invincible / confident. I detached myself, I gave myself to the act of being born, a natural act. I had a natural delivery and gave birth to a healthy girl, myself, the gynecologist missed the delivery.
I realized that my spiritual self, living energy, the powers of the earth and the Divine Supernatural, are all intertwined, they all determine, who I will be, who I will become, regardless of useless fears / useless worries, such as essence Of my soul. evolves, it was the birth of perception. At birth of any kind, after trauma, shock and drug use, after any emotional extreme, after which I feel happy and hopeful for yesterday, today and tomorrow, honored to claim the birth of gratitude, until the birth of another Era, until I get tired or I am chosen, when my body will rest, but I will not, because even in death, there is birth, the emergence of eternity, and the birth within, which is spiritual growth of the people whose lives I impacted. in a positive way.